Relief!!

We had our early ultrasound today at 15w 2d and baby looks good! It was so nice after being sick all week to see the baby and breath that huge sigh of relief!!

Baby was asleep and did not really want to participate in the ultrasound but had a nice heartbeat of 153!!

And the early gender prediction is in!!! And it's a:

Sick and Pregnant

I hit the 15 week mark yesterday and am so excited!!! It really seems to be going by pretty quickly. I think all of the holidays have something to do with that.

This week however has not been the best of weeks. It has been filled with worry... I think all pregnant people probably go through it although I think it is worse when you have waited so long to get this precious gift (for us it took 2 yrs). And I think for anybody who has had a miscarriage you are always on edge with the "what If's". So this week I have had this horrible throat infection and we don't know what it is. It started on Monday with a mild little sore throat. I thought no big deal, I get these all of the time because of my allergies. I assessed my throat, it was a tad bit red and my right tonsil was slightly swollen. Because of my job I so not take anything to lightly because the last thing I want to do is take something infectious up to our unit and infect these precious children who do not have any immune system. So Tuesday morning I woke up, my throat hurt a little bit more so I took my temperature, no fever, and looked at my throat again. To my surprise my tonsils were more swollen and now had white patches on them... My concern became strep throat even though I didn't have the fever that usually goes with it. So I tried and tried to get an appointment with my regular doctors and nobody could get me in. They were all willing to just call in a prescription for antibiotics but I didn't want to put anything in my body that wasn't necessary since I am pregnant.

Finally I found an office that would see me. Strep was negative but the nurse practioner was pretty impressed with my growing tonsils (they were growing as the day progressed and with the growth came more white patches). She felt like it was probably viral and sent me on my way. She also felt that it would be ok for my to return to work on Wednesday.

Wednesday came and my tonsils continued to grow, along with all of the lymph nodes in my neck. So my neck concern was mono. I had recently taken care of a kiddo with very active mono so I figured it wouldn't hurt to also get checked out. I went to our minor med after work that night and the nurse practioner there also felt like I looked like a classic mono case. But it was negative.

Thankfully Wednesday was my last day of work for the week so yesterday I could rest and recoup. My tonsils continued to grow, I was only able to eat soft foods at this point because they were so big that was the only thing that could get through.

Friday comes (today) and they finally seem a little smaller!! I hope I am on the mend!! My sweet kitty, Cooper, has given his momma lots of extra love and attention these last few days!!!

But this sickness has left me wondering if everything is ok with the baby. Did the baby get sick while I was sick? Is this virus anything that could harm the baby? Because as a nurse I know that there are several viruses that are NOT ok to get while pregnant and I just have to hope and pray that this virus was not one of those. It scares me.

My husband and I had set up to have an elective ultrasound this Saturday in order to have a very up to date picture to give to his family to open on Christmas Eve, since that is when we will finally tell them that we are expecting. So again I have this nervous anxiety about tomorrow's ultrasound. I am very hopeful that everything is ok, but you can't help but worry. I just need s/he to be safe and healthy and happy in there.

Please Lord let tomorrow provide the peace and comfort that this recent infection has taken away from me.

Hello 2nd trimester!!!

It's so weird to think that we are officially 1/3 of the way through this pregnancy already!

Nothing really new to report.  All continues to go well and I can't wait for my next doctors appointment!  The only new symptom that I have is head aches.   I have one almost everyday, they aren't terrible just annoying and if it continues to mean good things in our future on the baby front then I will take them!

My little jumping bean!!!

This past Thursday I had my 12 week check-up!   As appointments go I was nervous about going.  I don't know what it is but a few days before each appointment this nervous anxiety kicks in....

I knew this was supposed to be an "easy" appointment and that is what I wanted it to be, but I was still nervous!   Doc brought in the Doppler and said well we will see if we can find the heartbeat with this and if not I will just role in the ultrasound machine because being this early sometimes it is hard to find with the Doppler.  All sounded good to me!  One of my biggest concerns was that they wouldn't hear it with the Doppler and then they would just send me on my way left to wonder....  Glad he was willing to use his options!

Well doc was able to find the heartbeat very quickly with the Doppler and it was the sweetest little sounds!!!  He kept losing the heartbeat because he said we had an active little baby in there!!  Yet another good thing!!  

So my 12 week appointment went by with flying colors and I have a video momento with the heartbeat on it so I can listen to it whenever I want to!  Baby had a nice strong heart rate of 165-170!

Baby must be going through a big growth spurt this weekend because I have been more exhausted then I have been in a couple of weeks!  I will take my exhaustion as a good sign!

10 weeks and growing well!

It has been a while since I have been on here!! Sorry about that!!! Life has been very busy and very exhausting!

I had my 7 week scan and my was half the size of the six week scan so I was released back to my regular OBGYN! Saw him at 8 weeks and it was such a good feeling to be back!!! His nurse poked her head through the window at registration and was very excited that I was pregnant!! My doc also share the same excitement!

It was a really weird feeling to not see any doctor at 9 weeks and then again at 10 weeks since I will only go now for regular monthly appointments!!

We have started telling some people are good news and are excited to tell dh's family very soon! DH wanted a new ultrasound picture before we told them so that the picture looked more like an actual baby! He pulled some strings at work and was able to get us a surprise scan!!!

It was so cool to get to see our little bundle moving around all over the place!!! We are so excited!

So far in pregnancy I have felt pretty good. I have tossed my cookie twice, quesy if I don't eat my meals at particular times and exhausted. But considering how I could feel I know I am very fortunate! My other big symptom is constipation, but I am hoping I just found the cure in some good ol' fashioned prune juice!!

Still praying for all of my cyber friends out there that our awaiting there BFP's!! And praying for healthy pregnancies for those you have already gotten there's!!

Angel of Hope

It's really funny how things happen in life sometimes. Especially when you least expect to need it.

Two weeks ago I received a phone call from one of my best friends and during that phone call she told me to expect a package in the mail from her that week.

So let's rewind. 3 weeks ago is when I had my first questionable bfp. I tested again the next morning (Monday) and had a true very faint positive. Called my RE and went in that day for my first HCG draw and repeated it 2 days later on that Wednesday. And all was looking swell!

Tiffany had called me Sunday of our very exciting week, unaware of the events that had played out that week. Did not know of our bfp yet or anything. While on the phone she had told me that the day before she called (Saturday) she was at the store and she saw this sweet little figure from the willow tree collection, the Angel of Hope. She said when she saw it that God spoke to her and let her know that I was in need of that little figurine. When she told me this I asked her if she had read my blog from that week (she is the only friend that I have let into my blog thus far). She told me she hadn't but that she would read it when she had a chance. I left it at that, figured I would let our good news surprise her that way.

Initially I was so hopeful about everything that I did not quite understand why God led her to buy me that particular figure, but incredibly thankful none the less.

Then we come to that Monday and I have my third HCG draw and getting results that I wasn't as thrilled with on Tuesday. And I realized God new exactly what he was doing when he told her to get that figure for me. He knew that I wasn't going to be satisfied with Monday's results and that I was going to need Hope to get through it. He put Tiffany in the right place at the right time and reminded me that HE is the decision maker.

Since then we have definitely been faced with a little obstacle but I am constantly reminded buy my gracious gift that to be hopeful is the best medicine! And for that I am indebted to Tiffany's gratitude for this precious gift.

I truely could not ask for a better friend!

And there is always a but.....

Sorry I am so far behind in posts!  I have 2 other posts to make besides this one.  So expect those over the next few days!

Well today is the big 6 week mark!  I went back to my RE today to have our first ultrasound and discuss next steps.  Since my last post I have felt so much better about everything!  I think I just needed and emotional day to get past it and to start thinking positive again.  That doesn't mean that I was any less anxious about today though.  6 weeks is just one of those maybe/maybe not mile stones as far as seeing much on the ultrasound and I really, really, really needed to be able to see something on the ultrasound.  My husband went with me and boy was I glad he did!! 

This is what we saw:

 

Yup we have a baby there!!  It was surreal to see our little bean!  And then.....  our ultrasound tech said "do you see that little flicker?"  and I had to look closely because initially I did not see it but it was there!  The heart beat!!  I asked her if she was going to be able to measure it and give us a number and she did, a beautiful 115!!  The goal in the 6th week is 100-128 since it just started to beat!  To say we were beyond thrilled was an understatement. Every time she moved the probe I just wanted to see the baby and its little heart!  She also told me that we are currently measuring 6w1d which is as she said "you have a little over achiever!"  I told her that I had thought I O'd a day early this cycle so I was not really surprised by the measurement!

 

She gave us 3 little pictures as a keep sake! 

 

And then we went to the waiting room to wait for our doctor's appointment.  Of course at this point things became so much more real and the hubs and I discussed lots of future things because we just could not contain our excitement! 

 

We finally saw the doctor and he said "everything looks good BUT... you have a subchorionic hemorrhage."  What!!  Are you kidding me!!  I mean really!  My heart just sank instantly because things aren't as perfect as we thought 10 minutes ago.  Its a small hemorrhage measuring in at 0.55cm, but its there.  My RE said he was not that concerned by it because it was so small so I am going to have to go with that over the next week.  He wants another ultrasound next Thursday because of the hemorrhage just to check to see if its gone, bigger, or stable.  As long as all is well after that appointment I will be released back to my regular OBGYN.  He told me to call my OB today and go ahead and get an appointment set up since it can take a few weeks sometimes.  So now we wait another week. 

 

I will pray and pray and pray that everything turns out OK.  I of course did the no-no thing and googled and could not find anyone posting anything about a hemorrhage as small as mine and another website said something along the lines as long as it stays stable or improves that the chance of continuing on as a health pregnancy is 81% so for now I will take those odds because they are in my favor! 

 

Grow little baby grow!  and Go away little hemorrhage!!