It's so weird to think that we are officially 1/3 of the way through this pregnancy already!
Nothing really new to report. All continues to go well and I can't wait for my next doctors appointment! The only new symptom that I have is head aches. I have one almost everyday, they aren't terrible just annoying and if it continues to mean good things in our future on the baby front then I will take them!
Monday, December 10, 2012
Sunday, December 2, 2012
My little jumping bean!!!
This past Thursday I had my 12 week check-up! As appointments go I was nervous about going. I don't know what it is but a few days before each appointment this nervous anxiety kicks in....
I knew this was supposed to be an "easy" appointment and that is what I wanted it to be, but I was still nervous! Doc brought in the Doppler and said well we will see if we can find the heartbeat with this and if not I will just role in the ultrasound machine because being this early sometimes it is hard to find with the Doppler. All sounded good to me! One of my biggest concerns was that they wouldn't hear it with the Doppler and then they would just send me on my way left to wonder.... Glad he was willing to use his options!
Well doc was able to find the heartbeat very quickly with the Doppler and it was the sweetest little sounds!!! He kept losing the heartbeat because he said we had an active little baby in there!! Yet another good thing!!
So my 12 week appointment went by with flying colors and I have a video momento with the heartbeat on it so I can listen to it whenever I want to! Baby had a nice strong heart rate of 165-170!
Baby must be going through a big growth spurt this weekend because I have been more exhausted then I have been in a couple of weeks! I will take my exhaustion as a good sign!
I knew this was supposed to be an "easy" appointment and that is what I wanted it to be, but I was still nervous! Doc brought in the Doppler and said well we will see if we can find the heartbeat with this and if not I will just role in the ultrasound machine because being this early sometimes it is hard to find with the Doppler. All sounded good to me! One of my biggest concerns was that they wouldn't hear it with the Doppler and then they would just send me on my way left to wonder.... Glad he was willing to use his options!
Well doc was able to find the heartbeat very quickly with the Doppler and it was the sweetest little sounds!!! He kept losing the heartbeat because he said we had an active little baby in there!! Yet another good thing!!
So my 12 week appointment went by with flying colors and I have a video momento with the heartbeat on it so I can listen to it whenever I want to! Baby had a nice strong heart rate of 165-170!
Baby must be going through a big growth spurt this weekend because I have been more exhausted then I have been in a couple of weeks! I will take my exhaustion as a good sign!
Friday, November 16, 2012
10 weeks and growing well!
It has been a while since I have been on here!! Sorry about that!!! Life has been very busy and very exhausting!
I had my 7 week scan and my was half the size of the six week scan so I was released back to my regular OBGYN! Saw him at 8 weeks and it was such a good feeling to be back!!! His nurse poked her head through the window at registration and was very excited that I was pregnant!! My doc also share the same excitement!
It was a really weird feeling to not see any doctor at 9 weeks and then again at 10 weeks since I will only go now for regular monthly appointments!!
We have started telling some people are good news and are excited to tell dh's family very soon! DH wanted a new ultrasound picture before we told them so that the picture looked more like an actual baby! He pulled some strings at work and was able to get us a surprise scan!!!
It was so cool to get to see our little bundle moving around all over the place!!! We are so excited!
So far in pregnancy I have felt pretty good. I have tossed my cookie twice, quesy if I don't eat my meals at particular times and exhausted. But considering how I could feel I know I am very fortunate! My other big symptom is constipation, but I am hoping I just found the cure in some good ol' fashioned prune juice!!
Still praying for all of my cyber friends out there that our awaiting there BFP's!! And praying for healthy pregnancies for those you have already gotten there's!!
I had my 7 week scan and my was half the size of the six week scan so I was released back to my regular OBGYN! Saw him at 8 weeks and it was such a good feeling to be back!!! His nurse poked her head through the window at registration and was very excited that I was pregnant!! My doc also share the same excitement!
It was a really weird feeling to not see any doctor at 9 weeks and then again at 10 weeks since I will only go now for regular monthly appointments!!
We have started telling some people are good news and are excited to tell dh's family very soon! DH wanted a new ultrasound picture before we told them so that the picture looked more like an actual baby! He pulled some strings at work and was able to get us a surprise scan!!!
It was so cool to get to see our little bundle moving around all over the place!!! We are so excited!
So far in pregnancy I have felt pretty good. I have tossed my cookie twice, quesy if I don't eat my meals at particular times and exhausted. But considering how I could feel I know I am very fortunate! My other big symptom is constipation, but I am hoping I just found the cure in some good ol' fashioned prune juice!!
Still praying for all of my cyber friends out there that our awaiting there BFP's!! And praying for healthy pregnancies for those you have already gotten there's!!
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Angel of Hope
It's really funny how things happen in life sometimes. Especially when you least expect to need it.
Two weeks ago I received a phone call from one of my best friends and during that phone call she told me to expect a package in the mail from her that week.
So let's rewind. 3 weeks ago is when I had my first questionable bfp. I tested again the next morning (Monday) and had a true very faint positive. Called my RE and went in that day for my first HCG draw and repeated it 2 days later on that Wednesday. And all was looking swell!
Tiffany had called me Sunday of our very exciting week, unaware of the events that had played out that week. Did not know of our bfp yet or anything. While on the phone she had told me that the day before she called (Saturday) she was at the store and she saw this sweet little figure from the willow tree collection, the Angel of Hope. She said when she saw it that God spoke to her and let her know that I was in need of that little figurine. When she told me this I asked her if she had read my blog from that week (she is the only friend that I have let into my blog thus far). She told me she hadn't but that she would read it when she had a chance. I left it at that, figured I would let our good news surprise her that way.
Initially I was so hopeful about everything that I did not quite understand why God led her to buy me that particular figure, but incredibly thankful none the less.
Then we come to that Monday and I have my third HCG draw and getting results that I wasn't as thrilled with on Tuesday. And I realized God new exactly what he was doing when he told her to get that figure for me. He knew that I wasn't going to be satisfied with Monday's results and that I was going to need Hope to get through it. He put Tiffany in the right place at the right time and reminded me that HE is the decision maker.
Since then we have definitely been faced with a little obstacle but I am constantly reminded buy my gracious gift that to be hopeful is the best medicine! And for that I am indebted to Tiffany's gratitude for this precious gift.
I truely could not ask for a better friend!
Two weeks ago I received a phone call from one of my best friends and during that phone call she told me to expect a package in the mail from her that week.
So let's rewind. 3 weeks ago is when I had my first questionable bfp. I tested again the next morning (Monday) and had a true very faint positive. Called my RE and went in that day for my first HCG draw and repeated it 2 days later on that Wednesday. And all was looking swell!
Tiffany had called me Sunday of our very exciting week, unaware of the events that had played out that week. Did not know of our bfp yet or anything. While on the phone she had told me that the day before she called (Saturday) she was at the store and she saw this sweet little figure from the willow tree collection, the Angel of Hope. She said when she saw it that God spoke to her and let her know that I was in need of that little figurine. When she told me this I asked her if she had read my blog from that week (she is the only friend that I have let into my blog thus far). She told me she hadn't but that she would read it when she had a chance. I left it at that, figured I would let our good news surprise her that way.
Initially I was so hopeful about everything that I did not quite understand why God led her to buy me that particular figure, but incredibly thankful none the less.
Then we come to that Monday and I have my third HCG draw and getting results that I wasn't as thrilled with on Tuesday. And I realized God new exactly what he was doing when he told her to get that figure for me. He knew that I wasn't going to be satisfied with Monday's results and that I was going to need Hope to get through it. He put Tiffany in the right place at the right time and reminded me that HE is the decision maker.
Since then we have definitely been faced with a little obstacle but I am constantly reminded buy my gracious gift that to be hopeful is the best medicine! And for that I am indebted to Tiffany's gratitude for this precious gift.
I truely could not ask for a better friend!
Thursday, October 18, 2012
And there is always a but.....
Sorry I am so far behind in posts! I have 2 other posts to make besides this one. So expect those over the next few days!
Well today is the big 6 week mark! I went back to my RE today to have our first ultrasound and discuss next steps. Since my last post I have felt so much better about everything! I think I just needed and emotional day to get past it and to start thinking positive again. That doesn't mean that I was any less anxious about today though. 6 weeks is just one of those maybe/maybe not mile stones as far as seeing much on the ultrasound and I really, really, really needed to be able to see something on the ultrasound. My husband went with me and boy was I glad he did!!
This is what we saw:
Well today is the big 6 week mark! I went back to my RE today to have our first ultrasound and discuss next steps. Since my last post I have felt so much better about everything! I think I just needed and emotional day to get past it and to start thinking positive again. That doesn't mean that I was any less anxious about today though. 6 weeks is just one of those maybe/maybe not mile stones as far as seeing much on the ultrasound and I really, really, really needed to be able to see something on the ultrasound. My husband went with me and boy was I glad he did!!
This is what we saw:
Yup we have a baby there!! It was surreal to see our little bean! And then..... our ultrasound tech said "do you see that little flicker?" and I had to look closely because initially I did not see it but it was there! The heart beat!! I asked her if she was going to be able to measure it and give us a number and she did, a beautiful 115!! The goal in the 6th week is 100-128 since it just started to beat! To say we were beyond thrilled was an understatement. Every time she moved the probe I just wanted to see the baby and its little heart! She also told me that we are currently measuring 6w1d which is as she said "you have a little over achiever!" I told her that I had thought I O'd a day early this cycle so I was not really surprised by the measurement!
She gave us 3 little pictures as a keep sake!
And then we went to the waiting room to wait for our doctor's appointment. Of course at this point things became so much more real and the hubs and I discussed lots of future things because we just could not contain our excitement!
We finally saw the doctor and he said "everything looks good BUT... you have a subchorionic hemorrhage." What!! Are you kidding me!! I mean really! My heart just sank instantly because things aren't as perfect as we thought 10 minutes ago. Its a small hemorrhage measuring in at 0.55cm, but its there. My RE said he was not that concerned by it because it was so small so I am going to have to go with that over the next week. He wants another ultrasound next Thursday because of the hemorrhage just to check to see if its gone, bigger, or stable. As long as all is well after that appointment I will be released back to my regular OBGYN. He told me to call my OB today and go ahead and get an appointment set up since it can take a few weeks sometimes. So now we wait another week.
I will pray and pray and pray that everything turns out OK. I of course did the no-no thing and googled and could not find anyone posting anything about a hemorrhage as small as mine and another website said something along the lines as long as it stays stable or improves that the chance of continuing on as a health pregnancy is 81% so for now I will take those odds because they are in my favor!
Grow little baby grow! and Go away little hemorrhage!!
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Monday's results
Well I had my third and final HCG yesterday and I am left not knowing exactly how to feel. My results came back today at 539, which is still good, just lower than I was expecting. I went from doubling every 32 hours to every 48 and although that is still very good I am just confused/concerned at why I slowed so much. I probably shouldn't be but when going through infertility and a previous miscarriage I just don't really know how to feel. I guess scared.
I just want this baby so much. I can't imagine the heartache of loosing another one and I hope I don't have to. I am going to try to stay as positive as I can until my ultrasound because neither the baby nor I need the stress.
That brings me to another topic that I dont know how to feel about. The ultrasound. My RE normally does an ultrasounds at 6.5-7 weeks so that way it ALMOST guarantees you will see the heart beat. Well my RE will be out of town in between my 6.5-7 weeks so he wants me to come in at 6 weeks exactly, 10/18. There is so much chance at that point that I won't see the heartbeat Because it may just be a couple of days to early. And I don't want to risk not seeing it and stressing more. He wants me to have it done and doesn't want to wait until he returns to perform it. So I am kind of stuck. Next week is going to be hard enough as it is that I NEED the 18th to bring good results. Next Tuesday 10/16 was my due date from my miscarriage and right now I just fear that history is going to repeat itself. It was at my 6 weeks to the day with that pregnancy that I new 100% that I was loosing my baby.
Please Lord give me the hope and strength to get through these next couple of weeks.
I just want this baby so much. I can't imagine the heartache of loosing another one and I hope I don't have to. I am going to try to stay as positive as I can until my ultrasound because neither the baby nor I need the stress.
That brings me to another topic that I dont know how to feel about. The ultrasound. My RE normally does an ultrasounds at 6.5-7 weeks so that way it ALMOST guarantees you will see the heart beat. Well my RE will be out of town in between my 6.5-7 weeks so he wants me to come in at 6 weeks exactly, 10/18. There is so much chance at that point that I won't see the heartbeat Because it may just be a couple of days to early. And I don't want to risk not seeing it and stressing more. He wants me to have it done and doesn't want to wait until he returns to perform it. So I am kind of stuck. Next week is going to be hard enough as it is that I NEED the 18th to bring good results. Next Tuesday 10/16 was my due date from my miscarriage and right now I just fear that history is going to repeat itself. It was at my 6 weeks to the day with that pregnancy that I new 100% that I was loosing my baby.
Please Lord give me the hope and strength to get through these next couple of weeks.
Friday, October 5, 2012
We Have Had A Change In Plans!!
Our plans have completely changed. It all started this past Sunday September 30th when I realized I was probably 11 or 12 DPO and I had not started spotting.... I decided what the heck, lets take a test. So I pulled out my last remaining dollar store test and pee'd on it... After 5-10 minutes I could see a shadow, but I couldn't determine whether or not it had any color. I was baffled all day on whether or not it was an evap line or something more. I took a few pictures of it because I wanted to tweak it on countdowntopregnancy.com. So I did. On that website people can also vote on your little stick to determine whether or not they think it is a positive or not. I posted 2 pictures of my little stick, one with bathroom lighting and one with outdoor natural lighting. The results were pretty inconclusive. The vote for my indoor pick was 75% + to 25% -, roughly. And the complete reverse was true for my outside test.
So I pondered this all day long. I did not tell my husband that I had tested or that I was confused by what my little dollar store cheapy was trying to tell me. So that night I decided I needed to pull out a FRER, initially I figured I would wait to the morning when I could use FMU however the suspense was killing me so I just had to do it. I had 2 left, I figured one that night and one in the morning. Perfect!
So I pee'd on the FRER, and really there wasnt anything there. I evaluated it in all kinds of different lighting situations like I know many of us infertiles do!! And I felt like all I could see was an indent line, no color, no nothing. So I put it down and left it. Thinking non stop about my little stick while I went back to the computer to continue working on my upcoming presentation. My little stick kept drawing me to it. I just had to look again. Probably 10-15 mins later, heck maybe even 20 minutes I noticed the faintest of pink lines. I was like ok, what the heck 2 tests today that have evap lines?? I finally decided that I had to tell the husband what the days events had held and that I was incredibally confused!! I told him I would use my last FRER in the morning and if nothing was there then I would wait out AF.
Needless to say I did not sleep well that night. The anticipation was killing me!!! I woke up, ran to the bathroom, pulled out my last beautiful FRER and pee'd on it. Within the 3 minute time window there was the faintest of faint lines!! Ok I thought, this has to mean something right???
I woke the hubs up, told him the results and told him I needed to call a doctor that day. But I didnt know which doctor to call.... Should I call my RE or my OBGYN?? My RE and I had not discussed what to do if in fact the HSG was all I needed and I ended up with a BFP.... My husband tells me to slow down, not get to excited and reminded me about our miscarriage. I told him that was exactly why I needed to call a doctor! I needed levels and I wanted progesterone. After I said that out loud to him I knew my best bet and getting what I felt like I needed was through the RE!
So I went to work and waited for the RE's office to open. I left a message with my RE's nurse and told her about my positive test. She called me back and said "we need you to come in today to get a blood test!!" She had urgency in her voice, and I loved it! I asked her about the progesterone and she said she would call it into the pharmacy as soon as we hung up the phone. Brilliant!
I went to the office that Monday at 3w4d and had my blood drawn. I had to wait until Tuesday to get my results. When the phone rang that Tuesday I had to sit down to listen. My HCG was 38 and they were happy about that. And wanted a retest on Wednesday. At this point I was so thankful that A: I called on Monday and B: That I called on Monday because I was flying out on Wednesday to leave for PA. So I was able to stop by the RE's office on the way to the airport.
My RE's nurse said that they wanted my HCG to rise by at least 60% by Wednesday. I calculated out what a 60% rise would look like so I had a goal in mind and figured I needed to reach 62. So I had my husband, myself and one of my BFF's take a poll on what my HCG would be on Wednesday. The results were as follows: DH: 42 (now he had no idea how much HCG should rise in an normal pregnancy so I had to explain that to him. once he understood he said 85) BFF: 295 and Me: 95
I got the glorious phone call yesterday that it was 97!! Yes!! That means (because I like to figure these things out and countdowntopregnancy.com has this cool little feature where you can type everything in) I was doubling at a rate of 32.5 hours!!
All week I have been rubbing the right side of my lower abdomen (since my HSG showed that my uterus was on the right side) and saying grow baby grow!!!
My RE likes to follow patients with serial HCG's until you have reached 100. They wanted me to come in today to have another lab draw but seeing as how I was in PA to present at a national conference I was not availble to be in TN to have my lab drawn. We agreed on Monday. At that point my HCG should be anywhere from 400 (doubling every 72) to 1100 (doubling every 32). My guess is 852, somewhere in the middle!
I have a very good feeling that this little "bub" is here to stay! Thank you God for my many blessings!
So I pondered this all day long. I did not tell my husband that I had tested or that I was confused by what my little dollar store cheapy was trying to tell me. So that night I decided I needed to pull out a FRER, initially I figured I would wait to the morning when I could use FMU however the suspense was killing me so I just had to do it. I had 2 left, I figured one that night and one in the morning. Perfect!
So I pee'd on the FRER, and really there wasnt anything there. I evaluated it in all kinds of different lighting situations like I know many of us infertiles do!! And I felt like all I could see was an indent line, no color, no nothing. So I put it down and left it. Thinking non stop about my little stick while I went back to the computer to continue working on my upcoming presentation. My little stick kept drawing me to it. I just had to look again. Probably 10-15 mins later, heck maybe even 20 minutes I noticed the faintest of pink lines. I was like ok, what the heck 2 tests today that have evap lines?? I finally decided that I had to tell the husband what the days events had held and that I was incredibally confused!! I told him I would use my last FRER in the morning and if nothing was there then I would wait out AF.
Needless to say I did not sleep well that night. The anticipation was killing me!!! I woke up, ran to the bathroom, pulled out my last beautiful FRER and pee'd on it. Within the 3 minute time window there was the faintest of faint lines!! Ok I thought, this has to mean something right???
I woke the hubs up, told him the results and told him I needed to call a doctor that day. But I didnt know which doctor to call.... Should I call my RE or my OBGYN?? My RE and I had not discussed what to do if in fact the HSG was all I needed and I ended up with a BFP.... My husband tells me to slow down, not get to excited and reminded me about our miscarriage. I told him that was exactly why I needed to call a doctor! I needed levels and I wanted progesterone. After I said that out loud to him I knew my best bet and getting what I felt like I needed was through the RE!
So I went to work and waited for the RE's office to open. I left a message with my RE's nurse and told her about my positive test. She called me back and said "we need you to come in today to get a blood test!!" She had urgency in her voice, and I loved it! I asked her about the progesterone and she said she would call it into the pharmacy as soon as we hung up the phone. Brilliant!
I went to the office that Monday at 3w4d and had my blood drawn. I had to wait until Tuesday to get my results. When the phone rang that Tuesday I had to sit down to listen. My HCG was 38 and they were happy about that. And wanted a retest on Wednesday. At this point I was so thankful that A: I called on Monday and B: That I called on Monday because I was flying out on Wednesday to leave for PA. So I was able to stop by the RE's office on the way to the airport.
My RE's nurse said that they wanted my HCG to rise by at least 60% by Wednesday. I calculated out what a 60% rise would look like so I had a goal in mind and figured I needed to reach 62. So I had my husband, myself and one of my BFF's take a poll on what my HCG would be on Wednesday. The results were as follows: DH: 42 (now he had no idea how much HCG should rise in an normal pregnancy so I had to explain that to him. once he understood he said 85) BFF: 295 and Me: 95
I got the glorious phone call yesterday that it was 97!! Yes!! That means (because I like to figure these things out and countdowntopregnancy.com has this cool little feature where you can type everything in) I was doubling at a rate of 32.5 hours!!
All week I have been rubbing the right side of my lower abdomen (since my HSG showed that my uterus was on the right side) and saying grow baby grow!!!
My RE likes to follow patients with serial HCG's until you have reached 100. They wanted me to come in today to have another lab draw but seeing as how I was in PA to present at a national conference I was not availble to be in TN to have my lab drawn. We agreed on Monday. At that point my HCG should be anywhere from 400 (doubling every 72) to 1100 (doubling every 32). My guess is 852, somewhere in the middle!
I have a very good feeling that this little "bub" is here to stay! Thank you God for my many blessings!
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